User blog comment:Spyral370/It's Settled/@comment-3465505-20150714172356/@comment-25372553-20150714175612

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Alright...I'll at least explain what happened that made me...like this again:

It actually occurred last night. It was tachnically Amy's birthday, and I gave her a gift (which was ), she was happy and thank me and all that...

...later on, however, I experienced the same thing that always happens before, and that I was worried about; Everyone was still talking like, as if I wasn't there. When I tried to express what I was saying back there, they didn't really respond to me or anything. So I had that same feeling I was a ghost and all...then it escalated significantly...

...I left the chat, but I came back to ask the rest one question...

"Do you guys like me as a friend, and care about who I am and what I do and love?"

Neon, HAL, White and Amy said yes (of course, but I still doubt they do)...

...but then MMC said "I'm Not" and a "-_-" emoticon.

That's when I lost it.

I barked at MMC, saying to "never treat me like some person who you can insult" and "shut it and never talk to me again" and "I gave you a chance to be friendly to me, and you threw it away". Upon hearing the "I'm not" answer, I even said "I expected that from you, you prick".

HAL and Neon tried to backup MMC, trying to convince me that MMC was just being sarcastic and joking and all, and that sometimes he could be very confused and sound like an asshole. But me? Oh, you know, I doss approved of that, and went far enough the tell Neon to "zip it" and HAL to "not even try" and MMC to "shut up and never talk to me."

Suddenly Max interrupted about me going to therapy and some other stuff, then I told him:

Me: You know, Max, you should get an award.

Max: For what?

Me: For always changing the subject all the time, especially when I'm here.

And in another case, he changed the subject, and I said "Hey, don't you have to increase you sweeping generalization score?"

I also inquired one more time if I was still their friend. They said yes...but "I want more proof" was my answer, as well as an "oh pfft!"

With that, MMC left the chat...

...because of me.

I took things too far because of my damn emotional problems and blind opinions...

...I should've known better than to do all that crap.

I posted an apology on MMC's wall, and I even mentioned him here...

But I think it's too late now. You guys know how much more of a jerk I can be instead of a friend.